| acting out... i'm not in a good mindset. hope this passes soon. |
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| why do some of us continue to be friends and have relationships with people who hurt us or accept friendship from people with low morals and where do we draw the line? |
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| it's not difficult for me to be straight forward when there is a conflict. it's much more difficult for me to stretch the truth, let alone lie. even if others use my name for a cover (to lie), it just doesn't sit right with me... sometimes it's painful to deal with outcomes that aren't ideal due to being up front. today i caught myself wishing i could just be one of those people that don't even think twice about it--the ones who figure that's just the way the world works... that thought fleeted as i reassured myself that i made the right choice to be up front.. and that if things don't work out, well they weren't meant to be... integrity is a really important value to me (for myself, at least... and i'm sure for many others)... maybe i still haven't lived enough for life to break me down. i'm glad i still retain that type of innocence. |
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| i don't know if i made the right choice :( am i supposed to be here right now? |
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| in my every day world, i strive to lead a very low key life. nowadays, i just like things to be simple. after classes, i go straight to my work.. keep small talk to a minimum.. i really do lead a routine, ordinary, wallflower life. i started my day in a normal fashion, and a lady comes up to me (i have many of these stories.. go figure) and catches me off my guard. she says, "You're my hero." I guess she was observing something i was doing mindlessly and it's something she doesn't do quite as easily... which she elaborated on. it was a pretty touching story. i gave her words of encouragement and congratulated her on her efforts.. i couldn't help but smile because honestly.. i don't even think twice about half the stuff i do.. but it makes me grateful for things that i am blessed with that i do take for granted. between that and my run in (and subsequently let go) with a cop today.. yeah.. it's about time i remembered/realized that i am indeed blessed. |
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